August 20, 2009
I did it. Now finally over to my new blog. On this blog I posted one blogpost every day for a whole month. I can hardly believe it myself but it is true. I started on July 20 and today is August 20. Maybe it is even one day to much, but he, I am getting used to it, so it is by far not as difficult as it used to be.
I was thinking what I would have posted if not for this challenge. I am not sure how much it would have been but I AM sure what I would NOT have posted. At least 75%.
I am rather certain that 75% of what I posted would never have seen daylight. Maybe I would have written some of them (although not many I am sure) but then instead of hitting the publish button I would have pushed the button ‘save draft’. And would have never published it.
Many times it felt like rambling. And most of the time I did not do the post I had planned to do. Because of time pressure and not being satisfied with what I wrote about the subject I wanted to write about, I often had to write whatever came to mind at first.
And strangely enough it often went by itself. I just started to type and 10 minutes later I had a blogpost. Searching for a suiteble picture, that kind of expressed my blogpost, took often more time than the writing itself.
And thinking about that subject was also no problem, because I did not really think about it. I just started. And really loved it most of the time.
Except for some moments, that I had enough of the pressure of posting every day. And thought of quiting, because so what! No need to do it anyway. But I am very happy I went on with it.
But even more happy that it is over now. From now on I can again post when I want and if I do not feel like it, well then not.
And I can now go on with my new selfhosted blog, MindStructures, really look foreward to do that. And again spent more time on making graphics, construction and navigation part than on the writing.
But I am really so very glad the writing did go so much easier this month. Because no matter what, it is the only way to get my thinking clear.
August 19, 2009
I am totally exited, this was a great day. Well, bloggingwise that is. Not so much for anything else, as I have been on the computer non stop from early this morning and got nothing else done.
But it was worth it, because I can now make screenshots, opened another account and weblog and found a way to easy comment on other blogs. So many great advantages because of one clear moment. Read the rest of this entry »
August 17, 2009
What gave the most problems with yesterday’s post, was to see the spirit as objective. But that was mainly because I only used 4 signs in that model.
If I take all the signs, there are 3 fire signs that I can call spirit.
The one I called yesterday ‘objective personal spirit’ in my version of Integral theory, was called ‘primordial spirit’ in my previous mentioning of Zodiac models.
There are three different signs that can be called spirit: Impulsion, Expression and Vision (resp. aries, leo and sagittarius) Read the rest of this entry »
August 15, 2009
I wish the month was over. So I said it. As much as I love blogging, it is getting far and far to much to do a blogpost every day.
I have no time to think anymore, to get it all in line with what I wanted to do anyway with this blog.
I feel all I do is just rambling. There is no structure, no coherence, it all is nothing but loose pieces put together. And I am really wondering why I continue then. And not just stop. Read the rest of this entry »
August 14, 2009
Was the post of yesterday, writing with flow, ready in about five minutes, today it took me a whole lot longer. Acutally it is almost midnight and I still have nothing on paper that flows.
But that does not mean that I find the subject I wanted to write about not interesting. In fact I find it very interesting and can hardly stop thinking about it today. Maybe it is something that has been talked about often already, but to me it was very clarifying. Read the rest of this entry »
August 13, 2009
You just got to love Twitter. Today was such a day that I found one weblog after another where they talked about blogging. Well, not just about blogging, but about how to write on your blog. And if there is anything in the world that I need to learn, it is just that, writing.
I just can not seem to find the right way to do that. Writing purely from myself seems a lot like rambling. And integrating thoughts of others make me stumble and struggle. So the blogpost I found today about How to write with flow, was exactly what I needed. Read the rest of this entry »
August 12, 2009
These last days I have been discussing art as a result of several previous posts. The first of those post was The Judgement of Art where I mainly try to understand what the philosophy of Adorno is saying.
Then in the second post, The Subject of Beauty, I try to place art in the system I am trying to develop about the similarity between Integral theory and the Zodiac and in my last post about it, Aesthetic theory, I try to analyse art to see what it is and what it is not, using words based on my own understanding.
So now I am trying to find the place it has in Integral theory and the Zodiac (most recent post on that theory is Trying to understand each other) to see what can be a definition that is broad enough to cover art and precise enough to differ it from other parts of life. Read the rest of this entry »
August 11, 2009
Yeah, I did it! This morning I thought to try to get my new weblog working. I wanted to wait a bit at first because by now I know myself and once I start the new blog I can not stop anymore. But I had to find out if I could get it working.
When I searched for a domainname and a host for my blog, I had the choice between several webhosts. My main interest, of course, had one that said to be one click and all done. I like that a lot. Read the rest of this entry »
August 10, 2009
As I said before, I just love blogging. I love the instant character of it, the fact that I can easy upload pictures and videos, the linking to other sites, meeting people all over the world and having a place of my own to structure my mind.
I have several blogs by now, and although I mainly focus just on the newest one, I still adjust all the others to make them better to navigate. And at the same time I get to know more and more about blogging. Read the rest of this entry »
August 9, 2009
Still very intrigued by the vision of the philosopher Adorno about art and beauty in his Aesthetic theory, I went searching further to what others had to say about that.
And I found an interesting article here, which was very interesting. I had very much trouble reading what it was exactly saying, but somehow I got the feeling it did express what I had been thinking about. Read the rest of this entry »
August 8, 2009
After doing my blogpost yesterday, something got more clear to me. When I was writing the synopsis of the sign libra, and looked at the place it gets in my theorising about the similarity between the Zodiac and Integral theory, two things occurred to me.
August 7, 2009
Instead of going through the whole human development in a chronological way, I much more like to describe whatever comes into my mind. And at the moment it is reflection.
I will try to analyse the word reflection that is used here for the astological sign libra.
It is above the horizon, the first concept that is beyond the personal. Here the individual is getting relationships that are based upon individuality.
In its pure form there is no claiming (cancer), no need for attention (leo), or being overly critical (virgo). Read the rest of this entry »
August 6, 2009
Okay, so the words that I want to use in the context of this blog are clear now, defined in my previous post. The next step is to describe my understanding of development.
Development as a growth in complexity that can be seen everywhere around us and which is perfectly reflected in the cycle of the zodiac.
Now the words and concepts that I want to use here are especially chosen for the human development. Read the rest of this entry »
August 4, 2009
This week on a forum someone asked the question with which famous person you would like to drink a beer. In an impulse I answered that I would like to do that with the neurologist Oliver Sacks.
I read several of his books (intrigued by titles like ‘The man who mistakes his wife for a hat’ or something like that) and saw him interviewing a man with ‘Gilles de la Tourette’ once.
And I think I never saw anyone as open minded as him. Very much amazed by the human brain and always curious how fantastic that all works. Read the rest of this entry »
August 3, 2009
Today I did not get to blog what I had planned. I read a discussion about art which got my attention. The titel was: Is the judgement of art a subjective thing? And that is something I had been thinking about a lot lately.
I also had discussed that on a music forum a while ago and someone there pointed me to the work of a philosopher called Adorno. I had never heard of him but he seems to talk about Aesthetics. Read the rest of this entry »
August 2, 2009
I love to blog. It is something that is becoming more and more clear to myself. And I keep being surprised about that. And keep wondering what it is that I love so much about it. I never liked to write before, so why do I now.
But I also never liked to read and to study, until that all changed some years ago. From someone that would not read a book if it was not filled with pictures, graphics or photo’s, I changed into someone that could not stop reading. Read the rest of this entry »
August 1, 2009
When I was working on my next blogpost, where I wanted to add ages to visualise different stages of human development, I was using words like spirit and soul all the time. But as those have so many different meanings, I thought it might be better first to clarify how I mean them in this context. I did so before in a blogpost I wrote a year ago, read it again many times, but get confused every time myself when I do so. Now I thought to write the post again and try to follow the thought process more close. The core of the blogpost is a text I got from a book, which I will try to analyze more profound this time. Read the rest of this entry »
July 31, 2009
What I like most about the zodiac is that it shows a development in a development. Every sign can be seen at every level. And I think life, as it is an ongoing proces, goes through al stages all the time. But that does not mean that all goes smoothly and without problems. There are that do, but there are several that are difficult to transform.
The signs can be used for every development in nature, but here I like to focus on the human development. And the zodiac as a whole can be used as a model for all stages of age. I want to do that in another post, but here I want to focus on a very important part of the development, the development of the ego. Read the rest of this entry »
July 30, 2009
(I changed the definitions ‘individual’ and ‘universal’ in the four quadrants into ‘personal’ and ‘impersonal’ in my later posts. The reason is here)
1. Impulsion (aries)
New beginnings, the start of new cycles, birth, vitality. Aggressive, willful, assertive. Focused in short bursts, unlikely to sustain interest in the long term. Adventurous, pioneering, warrior-type energy, impatient, works best alone. Unconcerned with approval or acceptance. Lacks persistence and stamina. Honest and forthright. Read the rest of this entry »
July 30, 2009
So the theories I want to compare, are ‘integral theory’ and ‘the zodiac’. Although the words can be used different from how I mean them, most will agree in very general that both have the potential to cover ‘everything’.
The zodiac divides the whole in 12 and integral theory, in its very basic form, in 4. But the zodiac can also be brought back to a very basic form of 4. The very core of the zodiac are the 4 elements, fire, water, air and earth.
But their essence is not the same as the 4 quadrants of integral theory. Read the rest of this entry »
July 29, 2009
Now that I have finally come to the point that I can compare two theories, I find out how difficult it is to use the right words. Not that I did not know that already, (that is why I am trying to make the graphics) but still it has to be given the form of words too. The best would be to give them my own words, but that is not easy.
The biggest problem is that I might not use the ‘right words’. But then again if I do use the right words, it becomes a dictionary or a glossary. And I do not have to write that, as there are others that are far more capable of doing that. But in any way it is a good start using the right words. So to start I looked up AQAL in a special Integral glossery. Read the rest of this entry »
July 28, 2009
So, I finally got to make the first graphic with more than one layer. Did that take a long time to find out how to do that.
Well, I got to make it already before, but when I saved it in a map I could not find that map if I wanted to upload it on my blog. Talking about frustration, I was completely puzzled.
And as long as I used just one layer, there also was no problem and I could upload it to my blog easy. But to be able to use text, I need more then one layer. Read the rest of this entry »
July 27, 2009
Was I writing about being distracted by interesting websites yesterday, right afterwards I got distracted again. But now by interacting.
Interacting on forums, but also in comments on weblogs. Not just reading as I normally do, but also writing. Starting discussions, leaving comments and react on what others say.
So it made me wonder why I do not do that more often. A while ago I interacted a lot on Gaia, where I visited forums and also had a blog. And there the interaction was quite easy and also very interesting. But then I got totally distracted when I started a new weblog. Read the rest of this entry »
July 26, 2009
One good thing about frustration is that it lets you search beyond the known. While I am trying to get some simple graphics made, I find very interesting new sites.
Among them are sites that have information that I had been wanting to find, all in one place. Like a HTML Quicklist.
Or Tutorial9, a site with very clear tutorials about webdesign, blogs and photography. And on a site that I already visit a lot, Smashing Magazine, I found these really beautiful pictures of space. Read the rest of this entry »
July 25, 2009
While I am still struggling with the graphics (had something done in Paintnet yesterday, all went well until I wanted to upload it on my blog) I was thinking about dinner. Also important of course, but to be honest, I hate cooking. Well, hating is maybe a bit to strong, but I do not like it. Thinking about what to eat, day after day, I just don’t like it.
So as with everything I do not like, it never stays in my mind. I just can not seem to alter my thoughts on it. And I mostly take the easy way out. Read the rest of this entry »
July 24, 2009
So, I am starting to like writing, and trying to do it daily now. But I can not start yet so much with what I intended for this blog. I wanted to use little graphics to go with the posts so that I can make myself more clear.
The main subject of my thoughts these last years was about human development. I always found that a most interesting subject, but for a while now it has become more concrete. I studied homeopathy and astrology very intense and have been reading a lot from Ken Wilber recently. Read the rest of this entry »
July 23, 2009
I have just been reading some tips from very good topbloggers that blog about blogging. That is a whole lot of blog in one line, but I can’t help it, I am totally fascinated by the subject at the moment.
A few months back I joined the ’31 days to build a better blog’ from Problogger. But it was just before I was leaving home for a few months. That was set at the end of April, so I thought I still could join the course. Read the rest of this entry »
July 22, 2009
Now it is going to take a while before I get to manage a new program to make some grafics that I can use in my blogposts. First I have to decide which one is best for me.
Well, it does not have to be the best, but I must be able to use it in an easy way.
While I was searching on the web for some comparison between graphic programs, I found an interesting explanation of different internet users. It was on a blog where someone compared Photoshop with Gimp. Read the rest of this entry »
July 21, 2009
So, it is becoming more and more clear. All the work I spend on developing a website, all the drawings I made, all the grafics, texts, carefully mixed colours, navigation, all that is impossible to use on any other program I want to work with.
I have been working with a program that was called Studio Webdesign especially made for people like me, not familiar with webdesign but determined to make a website myself.
And it worked. I got better and better with it. Trying things again and again until I got what I wanted. The website became how I had meant it to be. Read the rest of this entry »
July 20, 2009
Although I am no writer (it takes forever to find the right words) I totally love blogging. For me it is more or less a registration of where I am fascinated about at that moment.
I have several blogs and I found out that my main interest is in human development. And that is what I want to write about for a month, hopefully supported by some images (trying out paint programmes) to express my thoughts better. Read the rest of this entry »
July 17, 2009
What is on my mind, is something that is on my mind for years now. It is something I read a few years ago in a book by a Dutch writer, George Bode. His thinking is mainly based on the thoughts of a French philosopher, Jean Carteret. As far as I know, nothing is written on paper by Carteret, but Bode wrote a book called: ‘Het poetische denken van Jean Carteret’. A book in which Bode tries to give an impression of the thought process of Carteret.
Deeply hidden in that book was the following (English translation of the Dutch writings of a French thoughtprocess, so something might get lost here): Read the rest of this entry »